|If hello kitty doesnt have a mouth...how can she talk?
||[Jul. 1st, 2009|06:03 am]
|||||garbage-bleed like me||]|
dont get me wrong. i love hello kitty;shes just kinda creepy. And no, thats not what this entry is about.
Hi ladies. How is everyone out there?i havent posted in a couple days because i had no computer. one of my kittens knocked over a cup of water and it seeped into my old laptop. I was so mad at both of us, but im over that now. Yesterday i was out and a guy i havent seen in a year told me he could tell i was losing weight and that i look good. My doctor and nurse say they see im losing too and my jeans are starting to feel loose... the only problem is when i look in the mirror all i see is someone who keeps getting fatter by the day. Which bothers me more than id like..Are they lying to me, or was i just really that fat?!
Failed the ABC diet. Was going to fast for three days and start over again. I see a lot of you on here fast and wondered if they would help me lose the weight fast. Only problem is im on 11 different medications right now and some of them require i eat or ill get sick. so i had a salad, which turned into two salads...which turned into graham crackers...followed closely by yogurt covered raisins! O..M..G WHERE is my motivation? Ive done fasts before when my doctor needed to do blood tests so i know i can do this! I still got sick after eating with my meds. Ive been dizzy and achy all day long. I just got up from a nap and im not much better.
Honestly I dont know what to do about my cravings. I wear an ana bracelet i made. Actually i made it in memory of my parents, but its red and says remember on it so i use it for ana too. But its not working. honestly if it fell off into my food in the middle of a binge id probablly eat it too.
UUGGHH!! I am SO frustrated right now. Im going back to bed. Anyone else have a similar problem with their diet? What do you do to succeed?